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[Jan. 22nd, 2006|05:20 pm] |
| What Your Face Says | 
At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.
Overall, your true self is passive and thoughtful.
With friends, you seem logical, detached, and a bit manipulative.
In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.
In stressful situations, you seem sad and helpless. |
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[Jan. 17th, 2006|10:57 am] |
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Happy + Sad + disappointed + hopeful + angry + excited + ignorant + thankful + special + ok . . .
that's how i feel . . .
i always smile, but im not really "ReAlLy" happy always....sometimes, i feel just normal...typical...and still SmILe a lot...haay, gets?
when i frown, ok i am "pretty" sad
sometimes I cry alone because of mixed emotions of anger that can't be released...
i get disappointed most of the time....with myself...with what's happening...sometimes, with how i react to what's happening...
and i feel ignorant, of why things happened to be or are happening....i keep searchin' for reasons and still end up feeling ignorant...
i feel thankful...for EVERYTHING...good or bad. because i know with God's purpose, anything can and WiLL turn out to be GrEaT
I feel so Special, because God Loves me...
and i'm hopeful and excited...of what's gonna happen in the next chapters of my temporary assignment |
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[Dec. 8th, 2005|03:09 pm] |
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second term finals naman...awwww...it's so tiring..well not physically, no duh?!?
so far, nothing hard...tomorrow pa!!wahahaha....
i've been sleep over"ING" since sunday evening...@desiree's house!!group study!~or should i say pair study?? anyway...i miss having fun..STUDYING is so B_O_R_I_N_G_!_!_!ahhhh!!my brain's drained!!hehehe still, i have to sacrifice and miss the fun..no tv, no mall, no duh??!ahhhh!!!no nothing...'cept the net!!ehehehe...and of course, the BIBLE...it's so fun to hear from God...<3 |
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[Nov. 14th, 2005|10:23 am] |
yesterday was just amazing...i'm just so grateful that i dont have to experience negative emotions (such as being anxious, bitter, angry, dissatisfied, envious, depressed and hopeless)...once i realized i can "not" be anxious, bitter...etc., i have never felt so happy and so free =)...well i am free...
i had one of the lowest points and one of the climax's of my life... I was just really sad but i didnt want to blame God as i used to...I thanked Him instead for still being with me...for reaching out to me, for surrounding me with God-fearing people, for just blessing me so much...(it's kinda hard doing that when your circumstances forces you to believe in the lies of the devil and lets you dwell on the past) i confessed the things i have been tolerating...plus all the lies i have been believing in...Wow, it was such a relief...I thought i could never find peace again...thank God! I dont want to tolerate anything anyomre...im done with that...i just wanna continue the race... |
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| a revelation |
[Nov. 10th, 2005|10:10 am] |
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At the midpoint of my relationship with Christ, i realized one awful habit i had been into- reading the bible out of obligation. It seemed like it was a responsibility i had to do. I knew i needed it, but i never understood exaclty why. I knew i love Him, but i never did (coz if i did i would've been obeying Him) days passed by and the need i "knew" wasn't fulfilled. Everything seemed okay but i wasn't really happy. Where will i ever find blisS? It looked as if it was out of reach. I was at the rim of happiness and I complained. (Man was i sorry for having done that!) Finally, God revealed to me what i had been doing. I really felt sorry for breaking His heart. but, as much as i was sad, I had great joy within me...for he forgave the guilt of my sin and cleansed me from all unrighteousness...It's hard to admit, but i still perpetrate the same mistakes...I pray to God to change my heart and renew my mind. I love God for giving me passion to read His word. Now i don't even care what my circumstances tell me, i only care about God's plan and God's will for my life. |
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[Oct. 27th, 2005|08:18 am] |
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i've been lost FOR COUNTLESS TIMES, non of 'em was worth it...i'm so thankful there is such a thing called repentance.. It's never too late to give your life back to Him..I'm not saying there'd be no more troubles..Coz there will be a lot..I haven't really been having a problem-free life, but i've been experiencing security and peace of mind through troubles....He could do amazing things you never think it's even possible...I mean, i've experienced being wayward somewhere in the middle...I don't know why i even tolerated such...After i gave my life back to Jesus, it's just amazing... u n d e s c r i b a b l e for short!...(--really now?)i dont want2 go back...It's such a messy life - full of worries and doubts...not even a bit secured - knowing you've been tricked by the devil...nah, just kidding...But wait, i guess that's the truth why i dont think there's something in between good and bad..It's either you're pleasing God, or the opposite..so why am i saying all these?!? Everyone having too much of a trouble- please hang on to where you are..Not just because you're overloaded with problems, you're out of God's will..it's not worth it hurting God..Remember, He knows what He's doing. Trust Him...that when you follow Him, it'll turn out to be just perfect.. |
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| Jesus in me |
[Sep. 30th, 2005|08:10 am] |
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it pays a lot to have a positive attitude toward things...But oh well, i don't need to pay nythin coz my savior did all that=)..Seriously now, it takes character to smile off all those turmoils...I thank God for my family even when i feel offended by them..I thank God for my school which is undescribable...I pray to God that i'd continue following Him, loving people, trusting in what He has in store for me=)--No matter what the cost, no matter what i feel. I pray that even when i'm down, hurt, or depressed i can smile and tell the world, "Hey, I still got Jesus"- coz when i have him, i have everything i need. |
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| blogthings=) |
[Sep. 21st, 2005|12:57 pm] |
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| Your French Name is: | 
Astrid Belmont |
okei...
| What Your Sleeping Position Says |
You are calm and rational.
You are also giving and kind - a great friend.
You are easy going and trusting.
However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games. |
uhuh..
| Your Brain's Pattern | 
Your mind is an incubator for good ideas, it just takes a while for them to develop.
But when you think of something, watch out!
Your thoughts tend to be huge, and they come on quickly - like an explosion.
You tend to be quiet around others, unless you're inspired by your next big idea. |
oh yeah?
uhmm...okei..
| Your Power Color Is Gold | 
At Your Highest:
You are engrossed in passions that mentally stimulate you.
At Your Lowest:
You seek thrills and neglect what's important in your life.
In Love:
You see dating as adventure and approach it with an open attitude.
How You're Attractive:
You passion for life makes others passionate about you.
Your Eternal Question:
"Am I Having Fun?" |
haha! yeah right...i am not open to dating!
| You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish |
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. |
funny!
| In a Past Life... | 
You Were: A Gentle Undertaker.
Where You Lived: Austria.
How You Died: Killed in Battle. |
uhhuh..
| You Should Learn Spanish | 
For you, learning a language is about career advancement and communication.
Knowing Spanish will bring you tons of possiblities for jobs and travel. Bárbaro! |
i'd rather learn french!haha=) |
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[Sep. 21st, 2005|08:25 am] |
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amazing love, how can it be? that you my king would die for me? Amazing love, i knoe it's true...it is my joy to honor you. In all i do, i honor you...i honor you, in all i do..
i pray that we'll all "bless the Lord at all times" psalm 34...
I will bless the LOrd at all times. It's not about "I". It's about Him, our Lord, my Lord...
Have the faith to bless him at all times...Sometimes it's really hard to rejoice through longsufferings and times of trouble...It's also hard to be glad whenever you feel like everybody has turned his back on you...but you know what? that's exactly what most of us do to God...We complain, ask for good people to surround us so we can love only the lovable... I'm speaking to myself as well..we're no different than the world if we're like that...
troubles and problems, turmoils and menace:>>Whatever we call it. It's there to perfect us. It doesn't mean you're out of God's will when it's present..It means He loves you and He wants you to learn...
It's good to know a GREAT LIFE is waiting for me...It's better to know Jesus was the reason..It's best to live like it.. |
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| wala lang |
[Aug. 30th, 2005|03:59 pm] |
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hay today was a tiring day! with 3 practical final exams! kitchen practicals was fun but tiring=) i can't imagine i was able to cook pepper sauce! plus chicken stock soup=) yummy! but my mashed potatoes were too creamy, not good in short.haha!=) restaurant practicals was so time pressured...hay! i'm glad it's finished...the easiest was the laundry/housekeeping=) hehe...it took us less than five minutes each! hehe, so funny...really easy!i'm thankful for all of these...I love Jesus!=) i forgot aomething a while ago but then i remembered it! hehe..i just prayed!less than a minute and i thought of it..hay! there's more (finals) to come tomorrow and in the next few days..i'm excited!=)not nervous seriously...with a great God, who would get nervous?!? |
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[Aug. 17th, 2005|04:51 pm] |
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midterms!!ahh!hehe...oh well, it's near.. yun lang
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school is really fun! i'd probably be surprised if i said this back then..haha! |
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| just a hint |
[Aug. 16th, 2005|02:39 pm] |
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life is just great. i've learned to trust in God's will...No matter how hard it is, if you know what He has for you, you'll just really trust in Him...Do what he tells you to do. You can only experience life through OBEDIENCE. |
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| StoLE - keLlY RowLAnD |
[Aug. 10th, 2005|02:58 pm] |
He was always such a nice boy
The quiet one
With good intentions
He was down for his brother
Respectful to his mother
A good boy
but good don't get attention
One kid with a promise
The brightest kid in school
He's not a fool
Reading books about science and smart stuff
It's not enough, no
Cause smart dont make you cool, whoa
He's not invisible anymore
With his Father's 9 and a broken fuse
Since he walked through that classroom door
He's all over primetime news
Mary's got the same size hands
As Marilyn Monroe
She put her fingers in the imprints
at Mann's Chinese Theatre show
She coulda been a movie star
Never got the chance to go that far
Her life was stole
Now we'll never know
No no no no oh
They were crying to the camera
Said he never fitted in
He wasn't welcomed
He showed up to the parties
We was hanging in
Some guys puttin' him down
Bullying him round round
Now I wish I woulda talked to him
Gave him the time of day
Not turn away
If I woulda been the one to maybe go this far
He might have stayed at home
Playing angry chords on his guitar
He's not invisible anymore
With his baggy pants and his legs in chains
Since he walked through that classroom door
Everybody knows his name
Mary's got the same size hands (Oh)
As Marilyn Monroe
She put her fingers in the imprints (Ooh)
at Mann's Chinese Theatre show
She coulda been a movie star
Never got the chance to go that far
Her life was stole
Now we'll never know
(Now we'll never know, oh)
Greg was always getting net from 20 feet away (20 feet away)
He had a tryout with the Sixers
Couldn't wait for Saturday (Saturday)
Now we're never gonna see him slam
Flying high as Kobe can
His life was stole (Stole)
Oh now we'll never know
Now we'll never never never know
Mmm now we'll never never never never know
Stole (Stole)
Oh whoa yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Mary's got the same size hands (Same size hands)
As Marilyn Monroe(Oh)
She put her fingers in the imprints
at Mann's Chinese Theatre show(She was gonna be a star)
She coulda been a movie star (Oh no)
Never got the chance to go that far (Never got the chance)
Her life was stole (Stole, stole)
Oh now we'll never know
(Now we'll never never know, no)
Greg was always getting net from 20 feet away (He had game, oh)
He had a try out with the Sixers
Couldn't wait for Saturday
Now we're never gonna see him slam (Never see him)
Flying high as Kobe can
His life was stole (Stole, oh)
Oh now we'll never know
(Now we'll never never know)
Oh no no no
Yeah their lives were stole
now we'll never know
(Stole)
We we're here all together yesterday
(Stole). |
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| One Saturday Evening, the next Monday Evening |
[Aug. 10th, 2005|01:33 pm] |
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Everything just seems to be so dull. At one point in time, i thought of the worst possible scenario still attainable. I can't imagine myself bein' there. I have run this far, i don't wanna stop. I didn't.
That Saturday Evening i was cryin' out to God, sin blocked my way. God was pruning me i guess. Till early mornin' my eyes were all chinky, i said i don't want more of this... I was terribly sad...wierd thing is -i was full of hope. It continued till the next Saturday... I was "fine" already, but i still cried- a lot. and i mean a lot.(there's another story here) It just hurts so bad when things are not going your way. I didn't want it, but i'm glad i experienced it. God wanted it. I'm glad he chose to hurt me. With that fact alone, i know he loves me. He just can't stand seeing me throw my life up. It's not about me. Next day, which is obviously a sunday, Sad to admit i was sinning my way down to rock bottom - answering my parents. I knew they did it for my own good, i was just hopelessly selfish.=( After what had happened, again, you know what a girl would do - cry.(i'm actually finding humor with my life, seeing myself back at that time, haha-oh so dramatic) annoying huh? I was just so sick and tired of repenting and doing things just the same. How can i ever be victorious in living a clean life?! all i could do was pray, read the bible, and just freakin' try finding the point...i was about to stop...But danielle was there. She didn't rebuke me, and i was soooooo glad! She did what jesus would do. She held me up (not literally ok)reminded me of the reason why i was doing all these. I love God; and i definately love my family. I recalled the verse saying "if you love me, you will obey my commands, he who does not love me will not obey my commands" I totally love god more than the devil...and i won't settle for an unfinished race. MONDAY EVENING, i was listening to a preaching on television..The preaher was waking up the dreamers. Again, i recalled being that dreamer. I realized from the verse "Joseph had a dream, and his brothers hated him all the more" that i was hated by people because of the dream i had. They just can't stand seeing me fulfill that dream. I have dreamt of a significant life. and the devil just won't stop at anything to pull me down, convincing me that i am hopelessly bad and that i ain't changing. I ain't believin' the devil. God is good. and i'm tellin ya, that's more than enough for me to change. I'm not changin' myself. God is. Right now, He's actually demonstrating his power to change people's lives. -Personally=P
I have never been so happy...yun na yun.=P |
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